“Bitch Wheres your book!!!?” was the exact text message I received a few hours ago from one of my closest friends…
The shit startled me. Like completely startled me because I never expected to hear it. Simply because life happens and people get so caught up in their own shit that anything outside of their lives becomes a non-existent part of their world… I’m guilty of that too, I hold my hands up. It’s so easy to become so wrapped up in your own lifelong journey that you become disconnected from anyone who doesn’t happen to be on that journey with you. For me it isn’t intentional, not at all … but it happens.
Well in short, my book is super paused. I wrote it, I read it, I edited it, I read it, I edited it, I read it, I edited it, I read it and then in the middle of editing it for the millionth time, life hit me in the face and said “BITCH YOU ARE A SINGLE MOTHER, WITH A BRIGHT LITTLE BOY THAT DESERVES THE WORLD AND MORE; DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO TO PROVIDE HIM WITH EVERYTHING HE DESERVES … AND SOME” … and that voice made me put down the pen and paper, it made me appreciate and realise that writing books is really a privilege that is awarded t0 those who have time on their side… time and money.
Financially I’m not in a position where I have ‘free time’ per say because any time that isn’t spent earning money, or looking after my child; is spent on my business. I’ve put everything into this business, and in order to do that I’ve had to take time away from other areas in my life regardless of how much I enjoy them. I barely go out, I save every penny I can because I’d rather not seek investment elsewhere at this moment in time, I don’t have time to blog as much as my state of mind recommends I should and most unfortunately for me … I haven’t had time to finish my book. But it’s all good because when my business has taken off and is financially looking after me as well as I need it to.. that book will be the first thing I do.
P.S Oh and please don’t be bright and come on here talking about no JK Rowling … she was on benefits sitting in a cafe every day writing about god damn wizards. YES the shit is genius, but she was lucky as fuck because if that HADN’T worked; she would have been at home, with no job, no money and no future and just a billion books about a crazy little wizard!!!!!!!
“When writing the story of your life…do not let anyone else hold the pen” – it’s that simple! x