My Panic Room… that’s exactly what this blog is to me. Every time things aren’t going right in my life and my emotions are all over the place THIS is always the first place I run to.
I wonder why that is …
Actually, I know exactly why that is. There’s nobody to please here.
I can write what I want, about who I want, and be candid and brutal about how I feel and though I may not have gotten my message to the intended person; it’s still off my shoulders. Never under estimate the relief of removing dead weight from your thoughts. We all carry dead weight around in our minds at some stage, that is unavoidable in my eyes… what we must learn to do is free ourselves from our own mental torture, by learning where our release is. Your release is whatever you need to do in order to take the bull shit that really has no business ruining every day of your life, and dumping it from your trail of thoughts. Some people sing, others meditate … I write.
It’s gone 2 am in the morning and I know my son will be up bright and early in the morning so i really should be asleep too… unfortunately i just don’t have time to ‘release’ tonight. Maybe I’ll find time tomorrow. Hell, I need to find time tomorrow, i’m making myself sick with this shit.
Night guys xx